Finding myself

For the past two months,i have been on a self-imposed hiatus from food. I've learned a lot about myself. I have depended so much on food to comfort me, to shield my emotions, to celebrate, to commiserate. Now, I've experienced raw emotions. I've white knuckled my way through a family reunion and thanksgiving. I've had a handful of food, but nothing substantial. I've enjoyed the increased energy, improved sense of well-being. I've wanted to stop. I've had fear. I'm still learning. I have a long way to go. I want health, vibrancy, wholeness, wellness..... I want to help others! But, I'm still so egocentric. Into myself, my issues, my problems.....but learning! Each experience=opportunity for learning! Each choice I make is a chance to learn something. I haven't failed. My course hasn't been as expected, nevertheless, I forge onward!